Don't be so offended

Here we are in 2014, and here's that hope that lingers every year that this year will be better then the last. When you're coming out of relationships wether that means with your ex boyfriend, a friend, or someone you thought you knew, they always pull the whole you've changed card. I've been thinking a lot about that "card" lately, and have asked myself a million times why it's so wrong to change. I don't like the idea of being the exact same person my whole life, and experiences happen that can alter the way you want to live or the way you want to express yourself. Events have happened to me that has changed the way I see life, others, and myself, and who can honestly say they were exactly who they were when they were in grade 8, 9, 10, etc. Why is it that as soon as you turn a certain age you are limited to the person everyone wants you to be? Also, clearly you aren't with them anymore because something has changed, why do they act so surprised? Don't let others put a limit on who you're suppose to be. Out with the old & in with the new is officially my new saying at this very moment. 

One thing I have learned in 2013 is that once someone thinks they know you, they build this idea of who you are & they become stubborn when they find out they might not exactly like the person they had in mind. I've spent a lot of time being caught up in others opinions of me & I've tried really hard to not let anyone down, but where does it end? When does it become okay to realize you will disappoint people & realize you can't make everyone happy? Eventually you just have to be confident in who you are & if people think you're different now or whatever bullshit they use, just remember that you are in control of who you want to be & the rest will work itself out. 

I truly believe life is a series of chapters, and we go through them at our own pace. There are people we are suppose to have forever, people that come and go within a week, others who simply just tear us down, people who build us up, and people we lose but didn't want to lose. I believe this makes us start to figure out who we are, and who we want to be. Depending on what chapter you are in, you will change. People might call you on it, or make you feel bad for growing out of them, but don't let that put a halt on your book. (if you're picking up what i'm putting down.) 

So maybe I'm not exactly the person you always wanted me to be, but last time I checked this is my life & I'm currently still trying to figure it all out. I have been fearful of writing something along the lines of this because I was afraid to sound selfish, and I've always been one to put others before me, but that has lead to some very heart breaking truths, so this year I am just going to do me, and feel how I feel when I feel it. (thankyou hannah) 

xo, 

Mady